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In any other world
You could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl
Into broken remnants
Smile like you mean it
And let yourself let go
I tried to live alone
But lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am
I had to give up my defences
So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go
Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived incurrent mood:  cold in my headphones: Mika - Any Other World |
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Sep. 11th, 2007 @ 02:13 am
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I thought that I would be fine.
I thought that I was fine.
I'm not.
Not now. Not ever. |
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Jul. 24th, 2007 @ 12:18 am
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the heart must either break or turn to lead |
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Jul. 4th, 2007 @ 11:36 pm
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Proverbs 11:3
The integrity of the upright guides them, but the unfaithful are destroyed by their duplicity. |
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Ive been going through a whole archive of postsecret. It's bad news whenever I do, but whatever. Here are the ones that got me thinking.
EDIT: The images went bye-bye, but the comments remain
I think this all the time... I've definitely moved on to greater and better things, but Ive definitely enjoyed the times I had in high school moreso than any other time. As an overall experience anyways. Ive made better "quality" friendships in university, by far, but I dont know what it was about St. Mike's that I miss.
This one is a bit of a lie. The reason no one listens is because I dont ever give them anything to listen to. maybe it's that i'm too proud to have someone helping me with my own issues. I do try. But maybe I'm scared of just coming right out and saying whats wrong, because the little hints I leave are never read for what they are. Tiny cries for help? Or the sardonic Glen? who can read through that, really? not even myself sometimes.
That is soooo me. Them walls are my saviour. I'd like to think that the walls serve some kind of purpose.
I'm terribly cryptic like this. It's very me.
I'm soooo afraid of this. Sometimes I feel as if I'm just going through the motions. I'm supposedly this young, almost hotshot-ish guy who is valued beyond my own evaluations. All this stuff that I "do"... the roles that I play... the complements I get for the work I've done... is it for real?
And even if it is, do I care about it at all? Is this what I want to be doing for the rest of my life?current mood:  moody |
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I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets,
It Ain't my fault cause I, try to get away but trouble follows me,
And still I try so hard, hoping one day they'll come and rescue me,
But until then, I'll be posted up right here rain, sleet, hail, snow
But until then, I'll be posted up right here with my heat getting dough
It's like I'm taking five steps forward, and ten steps back
Tryna get ahead of the game but I can't seem to get it on track
And I keep running away the ones that say they love me the most
How could I create the distance when it's supposed to be close? And uh,
I just don't know but I be out here fighting demons and
It's like the curse that I can't shake this part of Cleveland and
Lord, would you help me? And stop this pain
I keep inflincting on my family (family)
Hustlin and gamblin, drinkin' and scramblin'
And losin sight of what I supposed to be handlin'
It's hard to manage cause every days a challenge and man
And I'm slipping can't lose my balance and trying not to panic
Bone Thugs-N-Harmony feat. Akoncurrent mood:  mellow in my headphones: Bone Thugs-N-Harmony feat. Akon - I Tried |
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when every fiber in your body is telling you NOT to do something, you should fucking listen. who knows why, but that gut feeling is usually right.
and when you sense that something is going to happen, even if its days or weeks away, and you sit around ignoring the warning signs, that is just plain stupidity.
this time i really think i fucked up.
May. 20th, 2007 @ 11:12 pm
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Verne:
"I was just being cautious. 'Cause that's what I am. I'm naturally tentative.
There's even places in my shell I haven't been.
You, on the other hand, you're like... cool. And crazy and fearless.
I think they're right. I think I'm just jealous. "
How ironic. This is from the movie Over the Hedge. And Verne is a turtle.
May. 20th, 2007 @ 05:00 pm
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http://www.onesentence.org/
This site has a number of stories, told in one sentence, as submitted by random people. It's all over the map, but here's a couple good ones.
When asked to name the one person absent from her life that she missed the most, she responded, "The person I hoped I'd be by this point in my life."
When I read that the moon is moving away from the Earth at a rate of an inch a year, I knew one day too it would abandon me.
Recently I realized that I waste my life on the internet ... and published this insight in a blog.
I held my father's hand as he died in that hospital room and realized I'd never held his hand before that moment.
May. 17th, 2007 @ 11:15 pm
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wow, it's been a month, and still nothing.
but the need to write is stronger than ever.
once i start, it wont stop. tomorrow LJ, tomorrow...
May. 9th, 2007 @ 11:09 pm
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I miss you LJ. It's really funny that I woke up this morning with a need to write stuff down, get things out of my head. And tonight reaffirmed that. Then the email, about writing thoughts & feelings. I'll be back LJ, with a vengeance.
It sucks when someone says that they've noticed that you look stressed, and that you're losing weight because of it (not that that is a bad thing). But I didn't realize it until then.
7 more days. That is all I need to get through, 7 more days.
Apr. 14th, 2007 @ 03:23 am
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IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your music library.
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. dont lie!
Opening Credits:
Kirk Franklin - Revolution
Waking up:
AC/DC - You Shook me all Night Long
First Day at High school:
R. Kelly - Slow Wind
Falling In Love:
Jesus Christ Superstar - Overture (ooooo... what does THAT mean?)
Fight Song:
Tony Yayo - Drama Setter
Breaking Up:
Remy Ma - Whuteva
Prom:
Frank N Dank - Blaow
Life:
No Doubt - World go round
Mental Breakdown:
Sheek Louch feat. Styles P. - Kiss your ass Goodbye
Driving:
Jay-Z - It's a Hard Knock Life
Flashback:
Misteeq - Scandalous
Getting Back Together:
Donnie McClurkin - That's What I Believe
Wedding:
Nas feat. Alu Dara - Bridging the Gap
Birth of Child:
Busta Rhymes feat. Stevie Wonder - Been Through the Storm
Final Battle:
Boston Pops - Super Mario Bros Theme
Death Scene:
Reel Big Fish - Beer (again, what does THAT mean?)
Funeral Song:
Dizzie Gillespie - The Girl from Ipanema
End Credit:
Kano - Boys love Girls
Dec. 6th, 2006 @ 02:44 am
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